In Between

     I've kinda been feeling like I'm 19 again. No, not the late night partying or having no real responsibilities but that awkward feeling of not fitting in. That feeling that there's always something but nothing going on. To old to hang out with the younger teens and to young to hang out with any one over 21. Well, that's how 27 is feelin' right about now.
     Except now I'm stuck in between college students and parents. College kids seem to have a one track mind -partying or studying, one or the other. I'm all down for partying but now I'm old and like to get started early and not get so wasted I pass out and get my shoes taken or drawn on. -If you don't know about this, don't ask lol- Drinking used to be all about getting drunk and doing silly (stupid?) things. Now I just like to chill and get a buzz- no drama, no hangovers!
     And parents, well, parents are on a whole different level. Have you ever tried planning something with some one who has kids? Not easy. It's all about the kids schedule. If it's not school or some sort of appointment there's meeting or play-date with other monsters, I mean kids. When they are not running around doing mom stuff I'm sure the first thing they wanna do is hang out with someone who has nothing but free time to brag about! I will never talk about the long, uninterrupted baths I take or the fact that I sleep till noon everyday with a mom. Ever. Just doesn't seem fair. *I'd like to take this moment to give some props to all the moms out there who never get breaks, especially the single moms -you guys rock and are amazing!! Woot! Woot!*  So, yeah, point being it's hard to hang out with friends and their kids if you have no kids yourself.
      What I guess I'm trying to say is that I feel like I have this hole inside I can't fill. I mean, I am engaged and currently living with my fiance, which is awesome, but I want our family already! I feel like once we get a house and have a little baby the hole will be filled. This may sound weird but I just can't wait to show them what life is all about. Laughing, learning, loving and having fun with friends and family. So until then I guess I will just continue to enjoy my free time and sleeping in with my fiance ;